There are times when one emotion completely overwhelms me to the point where I ask myself if I am ever going to stop feeling this way. There shouldn’t be a reason why I feel the way that I do, but I do feel it. I don’t know how to stop feeling the way I do and sometimes I don’t even realize that I don’t feel that way.
Today, sadness overwhelmed me all day. I don’t have one exact reason to be sad, because although things aren’t great, they definitely aren’t bad. But I still woke up with such a sadness within me that I wondered what was going on. I was able to distract myself when I spoke to my friends, but as soon as I was alone with my own mind, the feeling returned. I could feel myself falling into the same hole, wondering if I would make it out on the other side or be stuck in a continuous loop.
It all sounds crazy, but that is exactly what my mind goes through. It makes me feel like I have no control over my emotions. Instead, my emotions control me. They control me so much that I feel I have a mental “block” as I like to call it.
This “block” stops me from moving past these emotions. I rather not think at all, than fight whatever is going on inside my mind.
Deep down, I know that this may stem from my anxiety and my mental strength, but I am not sure what the best solution is. Is there even one?
I almost let it get to me today. Instead, I pushed a little harder to move forward. These words helped release and push that block a little further away.
Today, I beat the “block” and I think that’s something to be proud of.
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