Goals – the happy within

my nightly thoughts:

Tomorrow is October. The beginning of a new month begins and so does the feeling of new possibilities.

Why does the start of something always feel like the right time to begin something “new”? Like saying on October 1st, I am going to start working out. I am going to start my skincare routine. I am going to do (fill in the blank).

I think the idea of the “beginning” of anything feels like a new chance to do what you said you were going to do last month. Or last few months…let’s be honest. But no worries, I am guilty of this too. I’ve been starting my workout routine for the last 5 months.

I think we need to retrain our brains to really say “This month I’m “beginning” a lot of things I said I was going to do. I may not make it and that’s okay.”

There’s no need to be so hard on yourself. The beginning of each month is a good place to restart your routines but also is each day. Every day is a good day to begin something new.

My vacation is over and now I’m returning to the reality I wanted to escape. But I feel different, I feel a little bit more positive. My anxiety still lingers and I’ve been learning to live with it. But, I’m ready to manage it.

My time off gave me the much-needed rest for my body and my mind that I was missing. I feel like my mind has a fresh perspective and it’s a little bit uplifting. I feel renewed interest in activities I haven’t even thought about for the last few years.

Today, I am going back to work but my mind is focused on all the new projects I am excited to work on.

I know that it will be a challenge, though. In the past, I wasn’t able to follow through with any of my goals. This only brought more negativity to my mind and fed into my anxiety. As I have mentioned, routine is hard for me and it’s even harder for me to even complete goals I set out to accomplish. I had too many expectations for myself and when I failed, I felt like I couldn’t keep going.

But no, not today. Today we fight. (Please let me know if you get this reference 😊)

I’m ready to fight for my goals and make a new reality for my self. One that I love.