Tag: comfort

There have been many times that I’ve labeled myself as “anti-social”. Sometimes as a joke, but more often than not, I’ve really believed that.

It’s not that I don’t want to hang out with my friends or get to know new people. Sometimes the fear that fills my mind consumes me so much that I rather avoid any social or new experience at ALL costs.

I rather stick to what I know than to take that step outside the safety line of my comfort zone. I look at the people around me at times and see how easily they talk freely. Smiles and laughs fill their faces. Pure joy at times.

Why cant that be me? Why is it so hard? Why am I stuck inside my own mind?

I haven’t figured out  the “why’s” just yet. Mainly because I am not sure when I started feeling the fear. All I know is that I don’t want to feel that fear. I don’t want to feel that anxiety of being a huge group and feeling like I can’t speak a word to anyone. I don’t want to be intimidated to new experiences, to life.

My comfort zone restricts me. But I’ve made one huge step. I am writing this now. On the internet. The vastness of the internet. No one may read this, or maybe one person will, but that’s not the point.

The point is my foot crossed that safety line and now I am outside.

So long comfort zone.